| Location | London |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Premature Birth |
| Date of Birth | 15/07/2009 |
| Date of Death | 15/07/2009 |
| Visitors | 1,630 since 07/11/2009 |
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Connor was born on Wednesday 15th July 2009 at 4.01am.
Connor was born at 22 weeks after a long 28 hour labour i gave birth to him, thinking he would be stillborn Ross and I were very happy when he started crying. After he was born and the cord was cut, and weighed he was 505 grams i had a long cuddle with him then Ross has a long cuddle with him. His parents came in and gave him a big cuddle. The doctor looked at him and told us he had a severe heart disorder and to prepare ourselves for the worst. We were all devastated but wanted to spend the most precious moments with Connor.
After 8 hours Connor passed away while i was cuddling him. I felt him getting colder and paler and he went to heaven too soon.
We organised the funeral and had a hearse from my friend Steven's house to the cemetry where we had a lovely cememony and ross and I got to say goodbye one last time to our special little man. We dressed him in the Manchester United football kit as it was my favourite football team, even though it was massive on him he looked beautiful. Connor was cremated at 4.01pm and scattered his ashes somewhere very special..
Connor baby boy you may be gone but mummy and daddy will never forget you. Daddy visits your grave 3 or 4 times a week and i go at least twice a week. You have lots of beautiful teddy bears, candles, pictures and cards on your grave and its such a peaceful place. I hope your having fun up in heaven and playing with all the teddy bears mummy and daddy got you, grandma and grandpa and last but not least Steven and Hayley who payed for your lovely funeral.
I love you so much baby and not a day goes past when i dont think of you. I know your nearby because when i am in my bedroom lying in bed i can feel you and your saying "mummy its okay i am safe and happy now" which always brings a tear to my eye and its happend to daddy too. Keep visiting us as we love to see you everyday.
Mummy and Daddy will see you in heaven when our time comes.
Sleep well angel i love you forever and always xxxxxxx
♪♫•**•.Angel Birthday Blessings.•**•☆.｡.•*
.......…….HAPPY 2nd BIRTHDAY
…....….....……Connor
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ღ ღ ღ ღ All My Love Beautiful Angel ღ ღ ღ ღ
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*ღ.......ღ* *ღHeavenly *ღ.......ღ* *ღ shona sengupta. ..ღ*
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How will heaven be?
As far as I can see
It will have huge bells
And will be situated on clouds
It will have many golden wells
That will so often swell
Rain will be abundant
And the sun will shine all day long
Angels will play on the harp
The sweetest summer song
Music that will touch the heart
While those beneath will shed drops of sorrow
Little will they know what will happen on the morrow
But to them up above
As plain and clear it will be
As far as far as I can see
Yes there will be misty alleys
And lush green meadows
Fresh with the fragrant smell of spring
Winter will never be bitter
Summer never so hot
Autumn never so bare
And resources never so scarce
Food for all will be relished by all.
Grateful we’ll be as grateful can be
Mountains high and strong and brown
Surrounding that hidden land,
Beautiful and vast seas I see
There colour as blue as sapphire can be
And the white waves lashing upon the shore
Sitting on the flattened grey rocks
Who would not call it absolutely heavenly?
However it might actually be,
But can we still not see
There will lie behind this seen
A relieving feeling of bliss
For where not have we been
But is this not by all believed
That after one’s decease
This is the land of eternal peace
Where we all ultimately reach?
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A Birthday In Heaven - by Kris Smith
I heard you crying yesterday,
And felt your heart-sent love.
So I’m sending you this message
Now, from Heaven up above.
You’re wondering if I’ll celebrate
My Birthday (way up here).
I know you’re missing me today
I feel your essence near.
God planned a special day for me,
He told me with a wink.
He’d ordered me a special cake
(It’s Angel food, I think).
Balloons will fill the streets for me,
They float up through the clouds.
And we have lots of friends up here
That make us laugh out loud.
There is a Birthday carousel,
Jewelled horses ride the wind,
With music playing, oh so sweet…
The magic never ends.
I’ve made so many friends, you see
We laugh and play and sing.
We ride our bikes and play jump rope
And sleep in Angel’s wings.
We’ll have our cake and ice cream
And open gifts - SURPRISE!
But we don’t blow out our candles here
Instead, they light the skies.
With love from your little Angel XX
hey baby boy its been a long time since i have been on here i am sorry hunny.. mummys been very busy.. Well your with daddy now i miss him so much and hope he keeps you safe and happy. It was snowing today so heavily and you would of loved it.. you would of been 5 and a half months old and still taken your out in snow with mummy and daddy.. I miss you so much little man.. You will always be my little angel forever and always.. Sleep tight baby boy xxxxx mummy loves you soo much xxxxx life isnt the same without you xxxxxxxx
Hi connor i miss you so much baby boy life isnt the same without you. I try to light a candle for you everyday but i cant write alot on that so i write you this coming from my heart. Your in the arms of the angels now i miss you so much it hurts, i talk about you to my boyfriend Dorian every so often and he is going to put a teddy down for you so i hope you like it.
It would of been your first christmas soon and daddy and i would of spoilt you rotten. Your grave is being sorted out so we can get you something nice to put on your grave and you can play with it. I hope danny is lookingn after you in heaven i asked him too. Danny is a close friend of mummy's and i miss him too so stick together and you will be fine. I hope you are playing with all your toys.
Anyways baby boy mummys got to try to get some sleep now if i can sleep i am thinking about you crying as i write this message to the most special little boy in my life..
I love you connor forever and always and hope you find peace now..
Lots of love mummy, daddy, grandma, grandpa, scott and aiden xxxxx
Connor my special little man who was alive for 8 hours exactly. I am so proud of you. Daddy got a cuddle with you and everyone adored you to pieces. I wanted to spend every single second with you after you were born. You mean the world to me forever and always. When your grave is sorted sorry daddy isnt being very nice right now! my boyfriend got me a teddy to put on your grave and he is going to put it down for you. Its a giraffe and hope you like it. You took my heart to heaven with you and hope your grandma B, Grandpa J, and Grandma E are looking after you aswell as my best mate danny. I love you son xxx
Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there.
I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond that glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush,
I am the swift uplifting rush of quiet birds
in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there,
I did not die.
Do You See My Daddy? - by Claire Thorpe
Do you see my Daddy?
Do you see him really?
Do you see him dying inside,
For the child he loved so dearly?
Or do you see him being strong,
An arm around my Mummy?
Do you see him cry at night,
Or is he trying to be funny?
He has to be a man,
Hold tight onto the tears,
He can’t show you, or anybody,
His deepest, darkest fears.
He has to put on “The brave face”
So everything seems fine,
But trust me, deep inside him,
He’s crying all the time.
He wanted to teach me football,
Play fighting on the floor,
He wanted to carry me in his arms,
To show off and adore.
Instead he felt so useless,
As he sat by Mummy’s side,
As she pushed me into the world,
And everyone, but me, cried.
So don’t think he’s not hurting,
And don’t think it is wrong,
To give him a gentle cuddle,
Tell him he doesn’t need to be strong.
Let him cry on your shoulder,
Because my Daddy’s hurting too,
Everyone cuddles my Mummy,
My Daddy, don’t know what to do!!
If I could kiss him and say,
“Hey, I look like you”
I love my Daddy so dearly.
Remember, he’s a Parent too.
His mates think, he’s “Still one of the Lads”
“Great,” “Good Fun,” “Still Him,”
Sending their love to my Mummy,
He’ll wink at them and grin.
But in his soul he’s dying,
A missing piece is gone,
What about my Daddy?
He didn’t do anything wrong!
Don’t treat him like a leper,
Or without the softer touch,
Remember to treat them both the same,
For he loved me, just as much!
To The Child I'll Never Know - by Gloria Dianne
How can I say Good Bye
When I never said Hello,
Why does my heart grieve
For the child I'll never know?
You were a part of me
For just a little while.
I grieve because I'll never see
The magic in your smile.
I grieve for all the unsaid words
That you will never say.
I grieve that I will never see
You happily at play.
I grieve for all the lullabies
That will remain unsung.
I grieve because I'll never see
Your face gleaming like the sun.
I grieve because you will never know
The comfort of my touch.
I grieve because you will never know
That you were loved so much.
I grieve for all the tomorrows
That will never be.
I grieve because God chose
To take you back from me.
You live among the Angels now
Your earthly mission done,
You will be so dearly missed
Good-Bye my little one.
X X
THERE IS A BOND THAT THAT YOU CANT SEE,
SO ITS NOT BOUBND WITH TWINE.
ITS FORMED FROM STRANDS WITHIN OUR SOULS.
THIS LOVE THATS YOURS AND MINE.
WHEN I WENT HOME TO BE WITH GOD,
YOU MUST NOW UNDERSTAND.
I TOOK WITH ME...
THIS BOND OF LOVE...
AND I STILL HOLD THAT STRAND.
SO LOOK NOW AT ME PHOTOGRAPH.
THE SMILE...
YOU'LL QUICKLY SEE.
BUT ON HEARTS CAN SEE THE STRAND.
FOREVER BINDING YOU AND ME.
ENJOY THE PRECIOUS MEMORIES ALTHOUGH WERE APART.
WELL SHARE MORE JOYS AGAIN ONE DAY.
I BELIEVE THAT WITH ALL MY HEART
JUST SENDING MY LOVE TO YOU AND YOUR FAMILY...XXX
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