| Location | London |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Premature Birth |
| Date of Birth | 15/07/2009 |
| Date of Death | 15/07/2009 |
| Visitors | 829 since 07/11/2009 |
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Connor was born on Wednesday 15th July 2009 at 4.01am.
Connor was born at 22 weeks after a long 28 hour labour i gave birth to him, thinking he would be
stillborn Ross and I were very happy when he started crying. After he was born and the cord was cut,
and weighed he was 505 grams i had a long cuddle with him then Ross has a long cuddle with him. His
parents came in and gave him a big cuddle. The doctor looked at him and told us he had a severe
heart disorder and to prepare ourselves for the worst. We were all devastated but wanted to spend
the most precious moments with Connor.
After 8 hours Connor passed away while i was cuddling him. I felt him getting colder and paler and
he went to heaven too soon.
We organised the funeral and had a hearse from my friend Steven's house to the cemetry where we had
a lovely cememony and ross and I got to say goodbye one last time to our special little man. We
dressed him in the Manchester United football kit as it was my favourite football team, even though
it was massive on him he looked beautiful. Connor was cremated at 4.01pm and scattered his ashes
somewhere very special..
Connor baby boy you may be gone but mummy and daddy will never forget you. Daddy visits your grave 3
or 4 times a week and i go at least twice a week. You have lots of beautiful teddy bears, candles,
pictures and cards on your grave and its such a peaceful place. I hope your having fun up in heaven
and playing with all the teddy bears mummy and daddy got you, grandma and grandpa and last but not
least Steven and Hayley who payed for your lovely funeral.
I love you so much baby and not a day goes past when i dont think of you. I know your nearby because
when i am in my bedroom lying in bed i can feel you and your saying "mummy its okay i am safe and
happy now" which always brings a tear to my eye and its happend to daddy too. Keep visiting us as we
love to see you everyday.
Mummy and Daddy will see you in heaven when our time comes.
Sleep well angel i love you forever and always xxxxxxx
Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there.
I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond that glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush,
I am the swift uplifting rush of quiet birds
in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there,
I did not die.
Do You See My Daddy? - by Claire Thorpe
Do you see my Daddy?
Do you see him really?
Do you see him dying inside,
For the child he loved so dearly?
Or do you see him being strong,
An arm around my Mummy?
Do you see him cry at night,
Or is he trying to be funny?
He has to be a man,
Hold tight onto the tears,
He can’t show you, or anybody,
His deepest, darkest fears.
He has to put on “The brave face”
So everything seems fine,
But trust me, deep inside him,
He’s crying all the time.
He wanted to teach me football,
Play fighting on the floor,
He wanted to carry me in his arms,
To show off and adore.
Instead he felt so useless,
As he sat by Mummy’s side,
As she pushed me into the world,
And everyone, but me, cried.
So don’t think he’s not hurting,
And don’t think it is wrong,
To give him a gentle cuddle,
Tell him he doesn’t need to be strong.
Let him cry on your shoulder,
Because my Daddy’s hurting too,
Everyone cuddles my Mummy,
My Daddy, don’t know what to do!!
If I could kiss him and say,
“Hey, I look like you”
I love my Daddy so dearly.
Remember, he’s a Parent too.
His mates think, he’s “Still one of the Lads”
“Great,” “Good Fun,” “Still Him,”
Sending their love to my Mummy,
He’ll wink at them and grin.
But in his soul he’s dying,
A missing piece is gone,
What about my Daddy?
He didn’t do anything wrong!
Don’t treat him like a leper,
Or without the softer touch,
Remember to treat them both the same,
For he loved me, just as much!
To The Child I'll Never Know - by Gloria Dianne
How can I say Good Bye
When I never said Hello,
Why does my heart grieve
For the child I'll never know?
You were a part of me
For just a little while.
I grieve because I'll never see
The magic in your smile.
I grieve for all the unsaid words
That you will never say.
I grieve that I will never see
You happily at play.
I grieve for all the lullabies
That will remain unsung.
I grieve because I'll never see
Your face gleaming like the sun.
I grieve because you will never know
The comfort of my touch.
I grieve because you will never know
That you were loved so much.
I grieve for all the tomorrows
That will never be.
I grieve because God chose
To take you back from me.
You live among the Angels now
Your earthly mission done,
You will be so dearly missed
Good-Bye my little one.
X X
THERE IS A BOND THAT THAT YOU CANT SEE,
SO ITS NOT BOUBND WITH TWINE.
ITS FORMED FROM STRANDS WITHIN OUR SOULS.
THIS LOVE THATS YOURS AND MINE.
WHEN I WENT HOME TO BE WITH GOD,
YOU MUST NOW UNDERSTAND.
I TOOK WITH ME...
THIS BOND OF LOVE...
AND I STILL HOLD THAT STRAND.
SO LOOK NOW AT ME PHOTOGRAPH.
THE SMILE...
YOU'LL QUICKLY SEE.
BUT ON HEARTS CAN SEE THE STRAND.
FOREVER BINDING YOU AND ME.
ENJOY THE PRECIOUS MEMORIES ALTHOUGH WERE APART.
WELL SHARE MORE JOYS AGAIN ONE DAY.
I BELIEVE THAT WITH ALL MY HEART
JUST SENDING MY LOVE TO YOU AND YOUR FAMILY...XXX
hey baby i miss you so much i woke up crying this morning i cant ever stop thinking of you. Daddy went to your grave this morning he was there for a long time just talking to you
i love you so much my special little man xxxxxxxx
Angel Connor
In a baby castle, just beyond your eye,
Your baby plays with angel toys that money cannot buy.
Who are you to wish him back into this world of strife,
No, play on little baby, he'll have eternal life.
At night when all is silent and sleep forsakes your eyes,
You'll hear his tiny footsteps come running to your side
His little hands caress you so tenderly and sweet,
You'll breathe a prayer and close your eyes and embrace him in your sleep.
.
God Bless Connor xx
(Author Unknown
Lay down my child
Close your eyes one more time
Let the night take you softly into sleep
Sure as the moon shining on your sweet face
Be rest assured you will be safe
In this place
The sweetest gift
God has given me
Graced with the tiniest beauty
These eyes have seen
Soft as the song of a winter wind
Sheltered by love
A love that will never end
Life so often a mystery
And each of us seeking a clue
To an answer I never thought I’d find
When I lost you
But in your time with me
Somehow you taught me to see
Just as in life
Even in death
You always will be here with me
So lay down my child
Close your eyes one more time
Let the night take you softly into sleep
And on to your maker you will fly
♥ God needed a special angel,
which you were chosen to be,
he put your tiny wings on
and set your spirit free ♥
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